I can't draw lately. I feel like my friends are drifting away. Thoughts of voice acting have been bugging me. I fell asleep in my english class room before school and Micheal had to wake me up. And I haven't been able to stop thinking about him. Or Courtnee. Or Clayton. I murdered 2 of my friends in a dream. The thing I want to find out most I can't. I could ask but I don't have the courage to. Maybe I'll ask in a few years, before we walk down different paths that may separate us for the rest of our lives. But why that person of all people? I've been having trouble sleeping lately. Plagued by nightmares of death and despair. Only 2 things will seem to help, but only one I can get. Seeing his or her smile can help me sleep peacefully. Or, to have someone with me, like a close friend. It's always nice to have the warm presence of another person around during the colder months. Unfortunatly, the years in which I could sleep in the same bed with a friend my age, without my parents worrying about my actions, is long gone. Great, I cut my thumb again. Crimson drops trailing rivers down my hand although tranquilzing, is very annoying. And to top it all off I can't get that image out of my head. Nicol taking a shower with his head tilted upwards with shampoo running out of his hair. And then him exiting the bathroom with nothing more than a towel wrapped around his waist. *sigh* The part is so... so... grr....